This Spring I lost two friends within weeks of each other. And in addition to the grief I felt I also couldn't help being overwhelmed with inspiration for their amazing lives-- these good, kind, generous, decent, loving people renewed my joy of life and the preciousness of living true to ourselves. I felt a deep urgency not to waste any of the life I have left.
This isn't the first time I've lost people I loved within a short time of each other and if you would have asked me when the before and after of my life was it would have been in 2002. Everyone who knows me well knows of the Summer of Discombobulation ... also highlighted in the start of my workshop and how ME Mapping came into my life.
Well as I was driving away from my dear friend Jim's funeral luncheon in May I recognized I was again in a new place in my life. Within the last three weeks I had visited with my past, been reunited with some people I had not seen in years, made peace with a few ex-friends, and had been reminded death can show up whenever it damn well pleases so none of us are guaranteed a thing.
Weirdly this Summer of 2018 and my 2nd big time of loss and transformation just happens to correspond with a big birthday-- so I have drawn a line of demarcation.
I'm done with anything weighing me down from my first 50 and on to what is worthy of this new time in my life. I had put up with things that weren't working in my life in the past and on this side of the line that's simply not going to work for me.
Life is too short for un-JOYfull living!
I made a Project 50 list of things I want to work on this year and who I want to be in this next decade of my life. It won't be easy to manifest it all but I know what I want and don't want in my life and I'm going to fully practice attracting what I want and decluttering and detaching from what I don't. Existential angst is a good wake up call for how you want to live your life. It's a gift. Not the one I was hoping for (wanted a new iPhone📱😉) but hopefully one that will keep me appreciative of life and saying fuck it to anything that is not truly important.
Cheers to the lives and memories of Sue Casey 🥂and Jim Tulley 🍻
You are loved and missed dearly! 😘😘
Happy Birthday to ME! 🎂🎉🎈
Happy joyfull life to us ALL for as long as we are blessed to be here!! 🤘😍✌️
1 comment:
I'm sorry you lost another friend, just losing Sue was enough. It's true, we are not guaranteed the future. I like how you took these unexpected losses (huge lemons) and are now focusing on positive future. (lemonade!) Happy Birthday, Joy!! I hope this is a fantastic year for you!
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